Last night, Nancy & I watched the movie 127 Hours, which friends had recommended and justly garnered 6 Oscar nominations. James Franco does a great job of re-enacting the story of an wilderness adventurer (Aron Ralston) who appears to be stuck between a rock and a hard place. Without spoiling the plot (too much), the account of his courage, stamina and ingenuity makes a fine caricature of the lengths to which we all go to try to establish and preserve an intact separate identity (with our bodies playing the starring hero role in the dream.) At the physically pivotal point in the film, he liberates himself from the limitation that appears to have held him captive. Prior to this, however, at what one might identify as the spiritual pivot point of the film, he chooses real freedom as he recounts to himself:
“You know, I’ve been thinking. Everything is… just comes together. It’s me. I chose this. I chose all this. … I’ve been moving towards it my entire life. The minute I was born, every breath that I’ve taken, every action has been leading me to this …” *
Perhaps this revelation is exactly what gives him the option to do what leads to the best possible outcome for this story, given the premise of the circumstances. We’ve all experienced these box canyon moments, when our choices have appeared to have been narrowed to just two; between feeling sorry for our self-imposed predicaments or set free by forgiving ourselves for the folly of feeling trapped.
Most of us run away from this depth of realization like the plague. Yet isn’t this exactly what any metaphysical system worth it’s pure non-dual foundation is gently reminding us of, 24/7? What if we were to freely abandon all thoughts of martyrdom for every dream event – from the most dramatic, as in this movie’s example – to the most seemingly trivial events that seem to disturb our peace? What if we looked down at the copy of the screenplay for the holographic movie of our lives, courageously examined the fine print at the bottom of the page, and saw our own signature? The only appropriate response would be to laugh, treat ourselves and each other (since we’re all perfect mirrors) with total kindness. As the protagonist in this film recounts favorite past life episodes of family, friends and life choices in a series of flashbacks, we get the impression that he realizes the true value of these relationships which transcend the special and specific incidents (or perhaps that’s just my projection onto the film?
To his video camcorder he shares “I love you guys … I’ll always be with you.”
In any case, I might not ever drink Sauvignon Blanc again. (You’ll have to see the film, if you haven’t already to appreciate this.)
* (Thanks to the folks at IMDB for providing the quote, excerpted above.)




















































How important it is to gently lay down my defenses
Hi All,
Thanks for sharing your thoughts and revelations, it’s so nice to get an idea where we are at on this journey, what comes up and to have a forum to put it out there in the space of like minds and forgiving friends! Interesting about the body symptoms as I have been confounded with a persistent wave of feeling incredibly fatigued and energy-less. I’ve been questioning “What does this mean?” as if it were a problem and then wondered how would Holy Spirit view this? I’ve given up trying to “figure it out” and just accepted I don’t know what this means but I can hand it over to HS with as much grace as I can muster and accept it as part of the path without my usual need to know. It is a chance to be gentle with myself (something relatively new, I’m starting to like it) and surrender my health and energy to HS which feels like a relief, something I wasn’t expecting to feel. And realizing I am projecting a bit of unconscious guilt onto my body so forgiving, handing it over to be seen differently, will put light where my darkness is trying to hide in defense. I’m beginning to see how important it is to gently lay down my defenses and be willing to be vulnerable despite the fear that what will be seen will be less than lovable. By hiding I just confirm to myself that there is something there to hide so best to bite the bullet and put it out there in the Light of forgiveness, acceptance and a family of beautiful friends.
This is not an easy path(!) so I keep reminding myself of the times where I get a palpable sense that I am not alone and of a presence patiently waiting (wait, are you sure?) for a complete relinquishment and surrender to God, Love, Faith. How hard can that be? I guess my ego will let me know and (now…) I am saying gladly, show me what I am holding onto so I can let go of more illusion, hmm, I am so asking for it now, hold on for the inevitable backlash, it’s on the way and I’m ready for the wild ride! The delusion of unworthiness feels so real at times.
After reading about Helen I feel so grateful for having our group, a haven of comfort when the comfort zone is being pushed, I know things are easier for me with our space of love and amazing acceptance when I forget to hold that space for myself, so grateful for all of you!
Okay, last thing, I heard this amazing song on the top 40 station, here it is in all it’s pop glory:
Wait, I’m wrong,
I should have done better than this,
Please, I’ll be strong,
I’m finding it hard to resist,
So show me what I’m looking for,
Save me, I’m lost,
Oh, Lord I’ve been waiting for You,
I’ll pay any cost,
Save me from being confused,
Show me what I’m looking for
…
Love and Light,
Jessica